why? why? why? i want to start afresh, but I am very sad. am I a demanding and rediculous person? am I already being hurt?
I very sad. whatever I planned for has been interrupted!!! why must god make me so headache? i have been looking for tonnes and tonnes of ideas, but it just can't success. why?! I really very very very tired already. i beg ! pls, let things go smoothly!
I don't want to drop tears again, but can I? I jus wan to cry inside my heart, but not out loud!
FUCK LAHS! UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED AND SAD
11:19 PM
Monday, September 07, 2009
haish. my grandpa is hospitalised again. in life, we don't really know what will happened the next seconds. so i hope i will treasure anyone and everyone, and be happy and smiling, laughing all the way.
雨过天晴！everything will be fine after a rain. so whenever i am sad, i will cry, and after that i will feel very happy.
treasure everything before its too late. 珍惜眼前的一切！
10:24 PM
I hope to see a picture of my future. I don't like my mother to ask me to wash the plates, wash the clothes, iron the shirt. why must I do this? why why why?!?! is it if i moved out, then i don't have to do this? if i got the time, i help her to do, is alright. but once i do, she will ask me to do more.
for example, i am having holiday now. so i try to sweep my room, change my bedsheet, and do bits and pieces of things to enlighten her workload, and to show her that i am independent enough to takecare of my own things.
however, she jus wants me to do more and more. in chinese, we call it 的村仅此，is it liddat write? hahas. i duno lahs. the meaning is there.
like today. she wants me to wash the clothes, hang the clothes, keep the clothes, want me to help out in cooking, want me to wash the plates after eating.
which i don wan. i wan to take the initiative to do myself if i want to. i don wan her to pressure me to do all this. like that i rather go out everyday. hate going home. wan to leave home asap.
young and naive
funn and cheerful
don't want to be hurt
Learning
# There is no achievement without goals
# Today's preparation determines tomorrow's achievement
# Choices have consequences
# My life has intrinsic value regardless of its usefulness to others
# I am never to be "used" but to be loved
# In my infancy, I was once naked without shame because of my innocence
# Nothing is impossible to a willing heart
# Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit
# Many receive advice, only the wise profit from it
# Success is a journey, not a destination
# The way to love anything is to realize it might be lost
# Once you have learned to love, you will have learned to live
# Whatever we want in life, we must pay a price
# The greater the value, the greater the sacrifice
